Have you ever watched the tv show, Grey’s Anatomy? Maybe you watched it as it unfolds in real time on television, but if you found it on Netflix like I did, it is absolutely amazing to see Meredith Grey’s (the main character) transformation.
I know this is completely fictitious, but wow do I wish that for EVERY human being. To be able to binge over the course of a weekend their life from their early twenties to now to see their growth.
I feel like I have been in a bit of a self-reflective state since I turned 40. This was a hard one for me I really believe everyone has a number in their mind that is a hard one to turn. Maybe it’s because you set professional goals for yourself to achieve by then, maybe relationship goals. Maybe you just remember an adult when you were younger that seemed so old to you and now you turn that age and think, man I was such a dick that I thought that beautiful goddess was old.
But I digress
Man this life is such a journey. There are so many turns along the way and it goes by so freaking fast.
How many times have you heard the days are long but the years are short? Too many times, and I know its almost annoying at this point when you hear because, let’s face it, usually you hear it when you are going through a hard time, or you just had a new baby and someone is telling you to enjoy the infant and maybe depending on your level of sleep or postpartum-ness you are like, “what do you think I’m doing? I can’t possibly stare at my child any harder!” And if it is a hard day you are going through becasue you have been spit-up on nonstop by your thankless blob and you feel like your sole purpose in life is to produce milk for them. You smell, and the thought of taking a shower is overwhelming. You want to kick the person who is telling you to enjoy it right in the crotch.
Believe it or not I feel like infant years and teen years are very similar to that. While I am no longer producing milk for them (eww) I am their uber driver, chef, tutor, and maid. All of which I very rarely get a thank you for.
Okay, getting side tracked a little here. My point in sharing these thoughts are:
- If you haven’t watched Grey’s Anatomy I highly recommend it. I think Meredith Grey is a badass and she isn’t perfect. She has moments where you want to scream at her for making the wrong choices, but man does she grow over the season and makes no apologies for it!
- Reflect on YOUR journey today. Do you not have as much in your savings account as you wanted? Are you starting over with a new career? Are you still looking for the great love of your life? So freaking what? Stop beating yourself up about it and look back at your crazy road that got you here today. Sure you might have had some setbacks along the way, but you are here. At this point right now. You are still breathing and you still have time to achieve your goals.
- Look ahead. Start making some small plans for yourself. Start with some easy wins that help you feel good. Right now one for me is THIS! I love to write and share (maybe overshare). AND you want to know a secret? I have such a hard time sticking to something. I have started over again too many times in my life to count, but today I can do this!
So, give yourself a hug – I know this is cheesy but whether it is a metaphorical hug or you literally wrap your arms around yourself, give yourself a moment of happy for who you are right now in this very moment. And last, I will leave you with one of my favorite Meredith Grey quotes, “Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out. And decide.”